Christmas didn't feel like Christmas, but it was better.

I was lucky enough to spend Christmas with my family (extended family even - all 31 of us!), and I was especially lucky that our chosen meeting spot was, in fact, the Caribbean. It was pretty magic, and we haven't all been together in forever. There's been marriages and births, and I think this was the first time some of my family members had met others. It was kind of totally fantastic.



Seattle was beautiful, and I can't wait to go back.



24 sounds so much older than 23. 24 is securely in the throes of adulthood, and it seems like I'd have some things figured out by now. But it seems like the older I get, the cloudier my future becomes. I'm drifting farther and farther from the things I wanted - both from the wanting and from the thing itself. And I'm starting to see new things that I want, new plans for the future - but I'm too afraid to say them aloud. Like they are so tiny and fragile and skittish if I said their names they would crack and hide away forever.

So I'm standing here, breathless, at this divide between the might-have-been and the could-be, trying to figure out which way to go, and if it really matters so much what I choose, but just that I choose something.


Eat your feelings.

I'm sick of talking about sad things for now. This move has been hard, but it would have been hard no matter what, wherever we would have gone. And some good has come from it: I've started cooking. In the past, we've rarely cooked a real meal other than on Sundays, but now that I'm not in school, I love spending my evenings in the kitchen, and I've found I really love feeding people. Here's some recipes we've been making a lot lately:

This Grilled Potato and Arugula Salad is delicious (for a salad). Via Love and Lemons.

This banana bread recipe is my favorite. It's no-nonsense and doesn't have any of that
ridiculous sugar crumble on the top. Via Full Circle Foodie.

I could eat these Quinoa-stuffed Acorn Squash Rings are every night. They taste like
Thanksgiving all wrapped into a cute little squash. Via Oh My Veggies.

And these are probably the best cookies I've had in a while. I use coco powder instead of espresso powder and they taste SO GOOD. (And now I brown the butter for nearly every batch of cookies I make. I'm a total convert.) 

So here's to eating your feelings,
but in the best possible way.


Cats on the internet.

The Eye of Sauron is watching you.


Family photos.

I shot this darling little family's photos last weekend, and - out of all the shots from the evening - I think this, taken while we were walking back to our cars, is my favorite. See a few more on my website.


A new place.

I don't know if I've come out and said it here on the blog, but we've moved. Both figuratively into adulthood and literally into the middle-south of Washington state. And it's so close to where I actually want to be living that it hurts. Don't let these pictures deceive you, it's a desert here. The move has been hard on me, I'm not even going to try to pretend otherwise. I'm trying so hard to love this place.

I went exploring and found this eerily deserted marina.